Hmmmm.. I got settled down on the couch and thought there was a topic/thought in my head, but now I am here, I have absolutely no idea what I was going to blog about. Of course, I don't know why it surprises me, I do that kind of thing all of the time. I have forgotten what I walked into a room for so many times I have started to leave and come back automatically.
I don't know if it happens to anyone more than me other than someone with Alzheimer's. Sometimes I think I am losing my mind. I have no idea what CC thinks about it. I don't know if he notices or if he just chalks it up to my quirkiness. It doesn't bother me most of the time except when I am in a hurry.
Why is it when you are in a hurry, (nothing unusual except getting up a few minutes late), your whole routine goes to hell? Yesterday was one of those days for me. I got a bit of a late start, nothing earth shattering. I took my shower and all the normal stuff to get ready to go to work and for some reason, I forgot EVERYTHING! First it was my keys, then it was my coffee, then it was my lunch (which happened to be sitting right next to my purse which I did not forget). I mean really? I got in and out of the car so many times you would think I was the Maytag repairman doing testing on a dryer door... Ok, tangent time, does anyone get that but me? It was an old commercial and sometimes I remember everything obscure but nothing important. At any rate, I just couldn't seem to get it together. Then, as I was driving into the office, I darn near missed my exit. Not because of extreme traffic (there is no such thing at 0530 in Indiana), but because I was off in space somewhere.
I don't think I'm brain dead. I didn't do drugs in college. I had a good time but did it the old fashion way with alcohol and lots of parties. I wasn't dropped on the head as a small child. No major car wrecks or physical abuse. I would say it's bad genetics but we have decently intelligent people on both sides of the family. Besides, even the not so smart ones aren't forgetful, they are just intellectually challenged.
I don't have any idea what it could be other than getting old. YIKES!!! Old should be a four letter word because it is so disgusting. Right up there with 'work' and 'diet'. Tangent time... Did you ever notice that the word 'diet' has the word "die" inside? Just thought I would point that out.
Maybe the Son has caused it. Maybe dealing with his issues and drama is frying my brain cells. Sounds plausible... I may have to go with that, it's all I got.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
I Owe, I Owe - Back to Work I Go
Today was the first day back after the Christmas holiday weekend. As per my usual tradition, all remnants of Christmas are gone. Tree, decorations, nativity set, wrapping paper, etc. is gone. Just a few stray cookies are left and I am sure the Son and his swarm of locusts will make short of that over the next day or two.
Returning to work was almost a relief. The holiday wasn't much to talk about. The Son received money and he got it in November. CC is in Florida and was on call. He worked about 16 hours over the weekend. My mother and grandmother are pretty low key. I visited on Sunday. So... For family, that about does it. Not much to speak of. No rushing from family member to family member here.
Reality has struck. After months of paying on two houses, the bills from the homes and the extra the Son has caused over the past several months is about to do me in. Money has been going out faster than we can keep up with. I currently will have zero dollars in the bank until January 6. Don't get me wrong.. I have heat, food, etc. But all of the Son's hospital and car bills and basically just funding him on top of all of the travel back and forth has really put a strain on our budget. Well... non-existent budget. It's hard to maintain a budget the way things have been going.
So, I need to sit down and figure out just what I have going where. I guess wrapping up the end of the year with an inventory of what is what isn't such a bad thing. Everything has been such a whirlwind as of late that I don't even know what I owe and to who anymore. Is that not the saddest thing? It's hard to talk to the Son about budgeting money and here I am, totally overwhelmed.
I need to take a step back, evaluate everything, determine where it is going, what can be cut out, etc. I have already cut out most of my "maintenance". Waxes, nails, pedi's, that kind of thing. I still get my hair colored. I don't want to give that up. I will age about 10 years in 6 months with all of the gray everyone would be able to see. We have basic cable as reception without it is non-existent. We do have Internet access. That is needed for schoolwork and my sanity. Also, in case of snow I work from home and would need it. We stopped the newspaper a long time ago. I have stopped buying soda as the Son and his friends go through it if it is here. I just make tea. If they are thirsty, they will drink it. I have been cutting out the housekeeper seeing as I don't do anything on the weekends anyway. Thank goodness we still aren't having to have someone cut the grass now that it's winter.
I talked to my realtor today. I asked if they were any closer with their property management business line at her company and she said no. She said she is getting very frustrated with them. She is interviewing with other places. I will probably FSBO the house, and also advertise to rent. First one to get here wins. We can't keep this up. I have posted the house on CraigsList hoping to catch someone who is just out there browsing. If I FSBO I can drop the price some. I'm sure that will help immensely.
I plan on spending next Monday preparing everything for my taxes. I will have it together and sorted so at the end of January I can go straight to the accountant. Hopefully I will have my refund by the end of Feb/first of Mar. I should also get my bonus in mid March. We just need to hold on that long.
The job hunt has really slowed down. I have applied for several positions and according to their websites I am still in the running but the issue is the time of year. Everyone stops the hiring process during the holidays. I am hopeful it will begin to pick up again in a week or two.
I can tell it is beginning to bother CC about all of this debt. It bothers me too. He is just usually very financially "together". Me too actually. This is throwing us both off a bit but we will make it work.
Returning to work was almost a relief. The holiday wasn't much to talk about. The Son received money and he got it in November. CC is in Florida and was on call. He worked about 16 hours over the weekend. My mother and grandmother are pretty low key. I visited on Sunday. So... For family, that about does it. Not much to speak of. No rushing from family member to family member here.
Reality has struck. After months of paying on two houses, the bills from the homes and the extra the Son has caused over the past several months is about to do me in. Money has been going out faster than we can keep up with. I currently will have zero dollars in the bank until January 6. Don't get me wrong.. I have heat, food, etc. But all of the Son's hospital and car bills and basically just funding him on top of all of the travel back and forth has really put a strain on our budget. Well... non-existent budget. It's hard to maintain a budget the way things have been going.
So, I need to sit down and figure out just what I have going where. I guess wrapping up the end of the year with an inventory of what is what isn't such a bad thing. Everything has been such a whirlwind as of late that I don't even know what I owe and to who anymore. Is that not the saddest thing? It's hard to talk to the Son about budgeting money and here I am, totally overwhelmed.
I need to take a step back, evaluate everything, determine where it is going, what can be cut out, etc. I have already cut out most of my "maintenance". Waxes, nails, pedi's, that kind of thing. I still get my hair colored. I don't want to give that up. I will age about 10 years in 6 months with all of the gray everyone would be able to see. We have basic cable as reception without it is non-existent. We do have Internet access. That is needed for schoolwork and my sanity. Also, in case of snow I work from home and would need it. We stopped the newspaper a long time ago. I have stopped buying soda as the Son and his friends go through it if it is here. I just make tea. If they are thirsty, they will drink it. I have been cutting out the housekeeper seeing as I don't do anything on the weekends anyway. Thank goodness we still aren't having to have someone cut the grass now that it's winter.
I talked to my realtor today. I asked if they were any closer with their property management business line at her company and she said no. She said she is getting very frustrated with them. She is interviewing with other places. I will probably FSBO the house, and also advertise to rent. First one to get here wins. We can't keep this up. I have posted the house on CraigsList hoping to catch someone who is just out there browsing. If I FSBO I can drop the price some. I'm sure that will help immensely.
I plan on spending next Monday preparing everything for my taxes. I will have it together and sorted so at the end of January I can go straight to the accountant. Hopefully I will have my refund by the end of Feb/first of Mar. I should also get my bonus in mid March. We just need to hold on that long.
The job hunt has really slowed down. I have applied for several positions and according to their websites I am still in the running but the issue is the time of year. Everyone stops the hiring process during the holidays. I am hopeful it will begin to pick up again in a week or two.
I can tell it is beginning to bother CC about all of this debt. It bothers me too. He is just usually very financially "together". Me too actually. This is throwing us both off a bit but we will make it work.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
On A Positive Note...
Here is the FaceBook message I got from CC this morning:
I've got a feeling
This year's for me and you
So happy Christmas
I love you baby
I can see a better time
When all our dreams come true
And here is my response:
You are my soulmate, the other half of me. You always have been but I was too blind to see it in our youth. Although physically we're apart this holiday, I feel you with me in my heart. You fill my life with love, joy, and laughter. I can't imagine spending it with anyone but you. Merry Christmas!
I love CC with all of my heart and I believe we were made to be together. I know we are apart today and will be for a couple more but I feel his constant presence in my heart giving me strength and courage.
Merry Christmas to You my CC, you are the light of my life!
I've got a feeling
This year's for me and you
So happy Christmas
I love you baby
I can see a better time
When all our dreams come true
And here is my response:
You are my soulmate, the other half of me. You always have been but I was too blind to see it in our youth. Although physically we're apart this holiday, I feel you with me in my heart. You fill my life with love, joy, and laughter. I can't imagine spending it with anyone but you. Merry Christmas!
I love CC with all of my heart and I believe we were made to be together. I know we are apart today and will be for a couple more but I feel his constant presence in my heart giving me strength and courage.
Merry Christmas to You my CC, you are the light of my life!
Christmas
It's Christmas. I'm here and CC is there in FL. It hasn't been an awful day. The Son seems happy and so there is peace in the house. No presents to open here so there is no Christmas excitement or spirit to speak of in the house.
The Son left to go to his father's side of the family for Christmas and I went to see my mother and my grandmother. My grandmother had been in the hospital recently for a severe drop in her blood sugar and has been released but is staying with my mother. My mother is a bit of a pack rat bordering on hoarder and it isn't the greatest place to be. I believe my grandmother said it made her feel "anxious". I confess, it does me too. I asked my mother if she missed counter space and she said "she is used to it". Hmmmm.
There are too many other battles to fight within my family. Grandma lives on a 23 acre farm. Mom lives on 2-3 acres in Doe Valley on a lake. The problem is most of the property is wooded and the house is on a huge hill. She cannot take care of the inside much less all of the outside so basically it is an overgrown mess.
The farm is about 7 acres of cleared land and 16 acres of woods/pasture. Generally all of the maintenance and upkeep on both places is done by me. I also have my own place to take care of. It is very much a full time job. Somehow I get at least the bare minimum done.
The point of it all is neither of them need to be living in these type of places as they cannot even begin to take care of them. If you have trouble walking to get your mail, chances are you are living in the wrong place. I have tried for two years to tell them I will be moving and to please sell the homes. I have told them they can move to Florida and live with me, they can buy a home close by, they can move into something a bit smaller without landscape work in the same area but they didn't need to own so much land. Of course, it all falls on deaf ears. I think my grandmother is more inclined than my mother. As my grandmother is Filipino, the weather in Clearwater is reminiscent of how winters are in the Philippines. This Midwest stuff is really for the birds. The problem is, she will not leave my mother and my mother will not begin to get rid of her "treasures". So... Here we are, another Christmas with barely places to sit, small paths to walk through and stubborn people unwilling to change.
I'm numb to it by now. I have convinced myself that all I can do is try and if they do not take me up on it, well, it's beyond my control. I love them both dearly but this holiday the frailty of them both really has brought their mortality to the forefront. I do not want them living their lives in that mess. I know they are happy and they are not "hoarders in the typical sense. No food, junk on the floor, just organized piles of things they haven't seen in a long time. If I saw bugs, it would be a totally different issue but it seems okay health wise right now.
I am happy they are both with me this holiday and I know there won't be many more. I just wish I could do more to help but the situation is so overwhelming. Unless they decide to do something, there isn't much I can do. I just really hope I don't inherit all of their "treasures"..
The Son left to go to his father's side of the family for Christmas and I went to see my mother and my grandmother. My grandmother had been in the hospital recently for a severe drop in her blood sugar and has been released but is staying with my mother. My mother is a bit of a pack rat bordering on hoarder and it isn't the greatest place to be. I believe my grandmother said it made her feel "anxious". I confess, it does me too. I asked my mother if she missed counter space and she said "she is used to it". Hmmmm.
There are too many other battles to fight within my family. Grandma lives on a 23 acre farm. Mom lives on 2-3 acres in Doe Valley on a lake. The problem is most of the property is wooded and the house is on a huge hill. She cannot take care of the inside much less all of the outside so basically it is an overgrown mess.
The farm is about 7 acres of cleared land and 16 acres of woods/pasture. Generally all of the maintenance and upkeep on both places is done by me. I also have my own place to take care of. It is very much a full time job. Somehow I get at least the bare minimum done.
The point of it all is neither of them need to be living in these type of places as they cannot even begin to take care of them. If you have trouble walking to get your mail, chances are you are living in the wrong place. I have tried for two years to tell them I will be moving and to please sell the homes. I have told them they can move to Florida and live with me, they can buy a home close by, they can move into something a bit smaller without landscape work in the same area but they didn't need to own so much land. Of course, it all falls on deaf ears. I think my grandmother is more inclined than my mother. As my grandmother is Filipino, the weather in Clearwater is reminiscent of how winters are in the Philippines. This Midwest stuff is really for the birds. The problem is, she will not leave my mother and my mother will not begin to get rid of her "treasures". So... Here we are, another Christmas with barely places to sit, small paths to walk through and stubborn people unwilling to change.
I'm numb to it by now. I have convinced myself that all I can do is try and if they do not take me up on it, well, it's beyond my control. I love them both dearly but this holiday the frailty of them both really has brought their mortality to the forefront. I do not want them living their lives in that mess. I know they are happy and they are not "hoarders in the typical sense. No food, junk on the floor, just organized piles of things they haven't seen in a long time. If I saw bugs, it would be a totally different issue but it seems okay health wise right now.
I am happy they are both with me this holiday and I know there won't be many more. I just wish I could do more to help but the situation is so overwhelming. Unless they decide to do something, there isn't much I can do. I just really hope I don't inherit all of their "treasures"..
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Better Late than Never
For anyone who was interested, I never got around to posting the pictures of our home in Clearwater and the renovations. Here are a few:
Friday, December 23, 2011
All's Quiet on the Southern Indiana Front...
Well, so far so good. No breakdowns or other major drama going on here tonight. I don't really know how these kids work but everything seemed almost normal when I arrived home from work today.
I left work at noon due to the holiday. I went to the mall to get the Son some clothes. Not for Christmas but because he really needed some. Anyway, they were having excellent sales at Aeropostale and Hollister so he got a bunch for a little. I did find a scarf for his GF and also a t-shirt at a low price and felt pretty good about it all. I got him a cheap phone to replace the other. I know, I shouldn't indulge him since he treats his phones as disposable but it was a GO phone, nothing fancy at all and I have to have a phone for him so I can find him.
I got home around 2pm. He seemed fine. I gave him his things and then he left to visit his father with the notion of getting some money from him. I sure hope he can. I have paid the mortgage and the electric bill plus the clothes and have little to nothing in the bank for another two weeks. UGH!
I hope this peace can last through the weekend. Turmoil is a holiday killer.
I left work at noon due to the holiday. I went to the mall to get the Son some clothes. Not for Christmas but because he really needed some. Anyway, they were having excellent sales at Aeropostale and Hollister so he got a bunch for a little. I did find a scarf for his GF and also a t-shirt at a low price and felt pretty good about it all. I got him a cheap phone to replace the other. I know, I shouldn't indulge him since he treats his phones as disposable but it was a GO phone, nothing fancy at all and I have to have a phone for him so I can find him.
I got home around 2pm. He seemed fine. I gave him his things and then he left to visit his father with the notion of getting some money from him. I sure hope he can. I have paid the mortgage and the electric bill plus the clothes and have little to nothing in the bank for another two weeks. UGH!
I hope this peace can last through the weekend. Turmoil is a holiday killer.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Holy Crap!
I think the Son and the GF are at it again. His hands are all torn up. I have no idea what he has been hitting. I just watched him beat the crap out of his bed. He is angry and hurt and I can understand that but he has absolutely no control. He screams, not at me or really anyone but more like a release. I so worry about him but I don't know what to do. He trashed that little phone. Now he sees why I won't buy another of any quality. It's pointless. When he is like this he doesn't listen. It's awful to watch. He was crying when he was downstairs with me. I can't imagine how it must be to have so much bottled in and no release. It doesn't excuse his behavior but one would think he would embrace help when it is provided to him. I don't know. It will be a long hard road for him especially with women. This is his first real love and I knew this would happen when it fell apart.
He has anger issues as it is and this is something well beyond anything he has ever experienced. I don't know how to help him. I wish I did. I have tried taking him to therapy, had him in a treatment facility. Once he calms down, he is actually quite lucid, sane, etc. You would never know he had this in him. I have known since he was small but for the most part he has always been pretty happy go lucky. Is there a rock bottom to hit when you have anger issues? What is it that will make someone seriously seek treatment instead of being forced by a parent or court? He seriously needs some coping skills but when he is calm, he blows it off and doesn't feel that he has a problem. Kind of like an alcoholic or drug addict. Nothing is wrong.... I'm scared it will get him killed one day. If not by an other's hand, by his own. He scares me to death driving a car. All of that pent up anger taken out on a car? Our roads are extremely curvy, two lane things that have taken more than a few lives.
Apparently this whole incident has been going on all day. He called the GF when he was in the car with me and lost his mind, screamed, threw the phone in the floor and began beating on his leg. (Probably because he couldn't beat the dash like he did in his car). I couldn't tell anything from the 45 seconds of call I heard. He asked where she was or has been and he started to yell (or be extremely loud) about something like she needed to use her head, she is not always right. Then he yelled to listen a few times then hung up the phone and that is when the screaming started. He was so red in the face and the veins in his neck were popping out. I don't know what is going on between them but they need to be on or off. This dimmer switch of hot and lukewarm is starting to wear on my nerves. No wonder my hair is falling out.
He continues with the suicide/wanting to die talk. It has gotten to the point to where a person can become almost numb due to hearing it so often. Some may say he is reaching out but I reach back and get nothing. I guess it all sounds good and maybe it's manipulation, maybe it's serious. I don't know. All I know is that anytime he is distressed he talks about it or that he would just die, etc. He has for years. A cry for help it may be but I have tried to talk to him, be a sounding board, etc. I have gotten him professional help 3-4 times all to no avail. What else is there? The last place I had him I thought they should medicate him and keep him for at least a month. They only kept him for 2-3 days and then sent him home on a multi-vitamin. Really? That's all you got? I was disgusted. When I talked to one of my social workers at work, she did not have anything good to say about the place he was in or for the doctor he saw while he was there. So, where do you go to get someone to take you and your son seriously? I've tried. Every time I would try to get him in somewhere there was always a 6-8 week wait for an appt. Whatever happened to striking while the iron was hot? It makes absolutely no sense to me. That is like having appendicitis but being told they can't do surgery for two months. Get real here people.
I see three options in his future. The first but most unlikely is that he will eventually see that he needs help and will seek it. The second is that he will get some doormat for a wife/girlfriend and will make her life a living hell, being on a roller coaster all the time. The third is that this will culminate in him getting himself killed.
He has anger issues as it is and this is something well beyond anything he has ever experienced. I don't know how to help him. I wish I did. I have tried taking him to therapy, had him in a treatment facility. Once he calms down, he is actually quite lucid, sane, etc. You would never know he had this in him. I have known since he was small but for the most part he has always been pretty happy go lucky. Is there a rock bottom to hit when you have anger issues? What is it that will make someone seriously seek treatment instead of being forced by a parent or court? He seriously needs some coping skills but when he is calm, he blows it off and doesn't feel that he has a problem. Kind of like an alcoholic or drug addict. Nothing is wrong.... I'm scared it will get him killed one day. If not by an other's hand, by his own. He scares me to death driving a car. All of that pent up anger taken out on a car? Our roads are extremely curvy, two lane things that have taken more than a few lives.
Apparently this whole incident has been going on all day. He called the GF when he was in the car with me and lost his mind, screamed, threw the phone in the floor and began beating on his leg. (Probably because he couldn't beat the dash like he did in his car). I couldn't tell anything from the 45 seconds of call I heard. He asked where she was or has been and he started to yell (or be extremely loud) about something like she needed to use her head, she is not always right. Then he yelled to listen a few times then hung up the phone and that is when the screaming started. He was so red in the face and the veins in his neck were popping out. I don't know what is going on between them but they need to be on or off. This dimmer switch of hot and lukewarm is starting to wear on my nerves. No wonder my hair is falling out.
He continues with the suicide/wanting to die talk. It has gotten to the point to where a person can become almost numb due to hearing it so often. Some may say he is reaching out but I reach back and get nothing. I guess it all sounds good and maybe it's manipulation, maybe it's serious. I don't know. All I know is that anytime he is distressed he talks about it or that he would just die, etc. He has for years. A cry for help it may be but I have tried to talk to him, be a sounding board, etc. I have gotten him professional help 3-4 times all to no avail. What else is there? The last place I had him I thought they should medicate him and keep him for at least a month. They only kept him for 2-3 days and then sent him home on a multi-vitamin. Really? That's all you got? I was disgusted. When I talked to one of my social workers at work, she did not have anything good to say about the place he was in or for the doctor he saw while he was there. So, where do you go to get someone to take you and your son seriously? I've tried. Every time I would try to get him in somewhere there was always a 6-8 week wait for an appt. Whatever happened to striking while the iron was hot? It makes absolutely no sense to me. That is like having appendicitis but being told they can't do surgery for two months. Get real here people.
I see three options in his future. The first but most unlikely is that he will eventually see that he needs help and will seek it. The second is that he will get some doormat for a wife/girlfriend and will make her life a living hell, being on a roller coaster all the time. The third is that this will culminate in him getting himself killed.
I'm Fat
I have been on this medication for a little over a week. No big strides in weight loss. I will say however, this stuff doesn't make you jumpy or anything. I'm just never hungry and I don't sit around and think about food. Heck, I had an entire tray of cookies brought to me today as a gift from a coworker and I didn't even have the urge to eat one. Nothing really sounds good. So, the medication is good. I just hope I can get some results. We shall see. I'm only suppose to be on it for a month, maybe two. I am hopeful I can begin some sort of exercise program without killing my joints. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Living Apart Makes a Person Crazy...
Just when I thought that things were at least in a rut and I had a grip on all that was going on, here comes Christmas. What do you get a person that can buy whatever it is they want? (Within reason).... I'm always stumped as to what to get CC for gift giving occasions. I definitely don't want to get something he may potentially go out and get on his own.. I don't want to buy socks, ties, shoes.... That is boring and really a necessity which to me takes it out of the gift giving selection process all together.
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| Blue Without You |
My original thought for Christmas was to buy him a piece of Blue Dog art by George Rodrigue. I found out rather quickly my taste far exceeds my budget. I am posting the prints that caught my eye. I wanted to purchase one of them. BUT, when I found out what a single print cost, I almost choked. I was really bummed out too because I had found a couple with some meaning. "Blue Without You" is exactly what it says. I am extremely sad without my CC with me and it would be a great representation of how I feel. The next picture is of the train "City of New Orleans". This train runs from up north all the way to New Orleans. If you have read some of my past blogs, you will know CC and I took a vacation, flew to Chicago to catch this very train and ride it all the way to NOLA. It was a fantastic vacation. It was on this particular trip we discovered Blue Dog. (There was one hanging in our room at the B&B). BUT, again WAY to pricey and there I was stuck without an idea of what to get CC for Christmas. As we are apart so much, I have a lot of time to sit and ponder.
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| Lonesome Whistle Blues |
It took me 5 months to decide on his birthday gift last year and this time I only had 2. I searched and searched on the Internet. Looking for something to jump out and say "This is it!". I happened upon a website for NOLA Pet Portraits. After looking at the artwork on the website, I decided I would go for it. The artist is Kd Amond. We exchanged several e-mails during which time I sent a multitude of pictures of Maddie and Daisy. Then I waited...and got nervous...and waited. Earlier this week she sent a picture of the portrait for my approval and I was so happy with the way it turned out. See below:
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| Maddie and Daisy |
I wish I would've been there to see CC open the box but well, I'm here and he's there.. So, I told him his present was coming and to look for it. To open it right away and let me know he got it. The bummer of the whole deal is when you can't see someone open a gift, it's hard to tell if they really like it. I hope he isn't disappointed.
It won't be long though until I am on my way back to Florida. I fly out on the 30th and will be there for the new year. We just spent a fantastic weekend in Nashville but I am always so anxious to be with him again. The living apart is really starting to take its toll. Not on our relationship, that is really solid but on my nerves. I just don't like being without him. He's my other half of me. Hell, we share a brain so neither of us is any good to anyone but each other. :)
I'm hoping that the job prospects pick back up after the holidays. Most companies won't hire or interview during this time of the year due to all of the vacations. It makes on-boarding tough. I need to really get something going. I've applied all over and just keep my fingers crossed. We shall see...
Weekend in Smashville
CC and I decided we would spend a long weekend together in Nashville this past weekend. For once I was driving to the airport to pick him up. :) We were able to get to the hotel and check in and still make the game. It was so good to see him! I miss him so much when we are apart.
We stopped in the team store to look at the merchandise with the new color scheme. CC bought me a new t-shirt that was pretty cute and then I posed with the stuffed Gnash outside the store for a photo op before grabbing a beer and heading to our seats.
The game was great. VERY exciting! We had a wonderful time. Beating Detroit always gets a person in a party mood so after the game we decided to take a walk down Broadway and over to a place called The Stage. I'm not sure the name of the band but they were really good. The place was packed with happy hockey people! :)
After a few beers there we decided to head back to the hotel. It had been a long day for the both of us between all of the driving and traveling by air.
The next day we got up and headed over to Noshville for a tasty breakfast. They have wonderful food! (Try the corned beef hash, it's wonderful)! After that we went shopping. First, a little something for us (Hustler Hollywood. Don't be a hater), Target and the snooty mall (not sure of the name). We managed to purchase stuff for us, stuff for the work crowd at Target and CC bought me a very nice sweater at the snooty mall. CC can only do so much of the shopping thing and to be quite honest I was done really with Christmas so we decided to take in a movie. We went to see Sherlock Homes, A Game of Shadows. I love a great matinee. Popcorn is mandatory! :)
After the movie we headed back to the hotel to unwind a bit before heading out to dinner with Coy and Julie. They booked reservations at The Palm. It was a steakhouse directly across the street from The Bridgestone. The food was good and plentiful and the company was great as always. The evening past fast and before we knew it, it was time to go home. Not before dessert though.. They have homemade donuts at The Palm served with a chocolate and a raspberry sauce. They were delicious and too rich to finish. For once, we actually had a doggie bag!
Saturday was here before we knew it. We had a lazy morning and then took off for the Germantown Cafe. They have the best french onion soup I have ever had. We both had a bowl of the steaming cheesy soup and split a reuben. The soup was actually quite filling and I barely was able to eat a few bites of the reuben which was excellent as well.
After brunch, we retired to the hotel to just relax and enjoy each other's company until it was time to go to the game. We left early to grab a bite to eat and had appetizers and beer at a bar called Bailey's on Broadway. We had a couple of beers and an appetizer to get us primed for some hockey. I had decided I wanted to sit in the Cell Block. (WAY up in the rafters, generally a very rowdy section). It was really different watching a game from that point of view. We won! YAY! Afterwards we headed home, very pleased with yet another Predator win.
Before I knew it, it was Sunday and time to take my CC back to the airport. I hate all of the goodbyes we keep having to say to each other. I can't wait for the day when we can finally be together forever. We both make do with what we have, knowing it is temporary but as Tom Petty says, "...waiting is the hardest part".
We stopped in the team store to look at the merchandise with the new color scheme. CC bought me a new t-shirt that was pretty cute and then I posed with the stuffed Gnash outside the store for a photo op before grabbing a beer and heading to our seats.
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| Isn't Gnash adorable? |
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| Not a conventional photo but at least you can see the detail ! |
After a few beers there we decided to head back to the hotel. It had been a long day for the both of us between all of the driving and traveling by air.
The next day we got up and headed over to Noshville for a tasty breakfast. They have wonderful food! (Try the corned beef hash, it's wonderful)! After that we went shopping. First, a little something for us (Hustler Hollywood. Don't be a hater), Target and the snooty mall (not sure of the name). We managed to purchase stuff for us, stuff for the work crowd at Target and CC bought me a very nice sweater at the snooty mall. CC can only do so much of the shopping thing and to be quite honest I was done really with Christmas so we decided to take in a movie. We went to see Sherlock Homes, A Game of Shadows. I love a great matinee. Popcorn is mandatory! :)
After the movie we headed back to the hotel to unwind a bit before heading out to dinner with Coy and Julie. They booked reservations at The Palm. It was a steakhouse directly across the street from The Bridgestone. The food was good and plentiful and the company was great as always. The evening past fast and before we knew it, it was time to go home. Not before dessert though.. They have homemade donuts at The Palm served with a chocolate and a raspberry sauce. They were delicious and too rich to finish. For once, we actually had a doggie bag!
Saturday was here before we knew it. We had a lazy morning and then took off for the Germantown Cafe. They have the best french onion soup I have ever had. We both had a bowl of the steaming cheesy soup and split a reuben. The soup was actually quite filling and I barely was able to eat a few bites of the reuben which was excellent as well.
After brunch, we retired to the hotel to just relax and enjoy each other's company until it was time to go to the game. We left early to grab a bite to eat and had appetizers and beer at a bar called Bailey's on Broadway. We had a couple of beers and an appetizer to get us primed for some hockey. I had decided I wanted to sit in the Cell Block. (WAY up in the rafters, generally a very rowdy section). It was really different watching a game from that point of view. We won! YAY! Afterwards we headed home, very pleased with yet another Predator win.
Before I knew it, it was Sunday and time to take my CC back to the airport. I hate all of the goodbyes we keep having to say to each other. I can't wait for the day when we can finally be together forever. We both make do with what we have, knowing it is temporary but as Tom Petty says, "...waiting is the hardest part".
Monday, December 5, 2011
Disappointment Lives in Southern Indiana
Just when I thought things may be evening out, I get smacked in the face with disappointment yet again. For those of you out there without children, the best advice I can give is to get a dog. Children are overrated and are a constant source of disappointment.
The Son built another car with major assistance from a friend of mine. I left on Thursday for Florida and my friend stayed at my home with the Son. Well, the Son decided to have a major party, 40 + people. My friend was able to contain the situation but the fact it occurred at all really tends to piss me off.
I have done my best with my Son, I THOUGHT we were beginning to make headway and because of this, I would think I could get a bit of respect. BUT NOOOOOOO,.... Apparently that is too much to ask. I will be going home today and will need to sit down with the Son. I am so tired of this. If he feels he is beyond raising, I can emancipate him and he can do what he wants. Anything but come crying to me when he falls on his face. If he wants to be an adult I can make him one but I am exhausted from trying to take care of him and it is taking its toll.
The Son built another car with major assistance from a friend of mine. I left on Thursday for Florida and my friend stayed at my home with the Son. Well, the Son decided to have a major party, 40 + people. My friend was able to contain the situation but the fact it occurred at all really tends to piss me off.
I have done my best with my Son, I THOUGHT we were beginning to make headway and because of this, I would think I could get a bit of respect. BUT NOOOOOOO,.... Apparently that is too much to ask. I will be going home today and will need to sit down with the Son. I am so tired of this. If he feels he is beyond raising, I can emancipate him and he can do what he wants. Anything but come crying to me when he falls on his face. If he wants to be an adult I can make him one but I am exhausted from trying to take care of him and it is taking its toll.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Daylight's Burning
So. Here I am sitting in the airport in Birmingham, waiting through a 2+ hour layover before my flight to Tampa. I have spoke with CC, spoke with the Son, had two beers, then went for coffee (yeah, contradict each other) and now I am sitting here still waiting. Bonus though, CC said he apparently requested tomorrow and Monday off of work so it will be even more time together. YAY!
I have a third interview tomorrow with a company in St. Pete. They are a small, privately owned company which gives me the willys. This whole interview process I have gone through is almost a clone of a previous experience that did NOT turn out well. (Apparently I was too "big" company for them and they didn't care for anything I had to say). I have had IQ and personality tests, hours of interviews etc. I just don't know about such a small place. it has been an ordeal to say the least. I am going tomorrow to see if I still feel the same way before I make a decision. I have several more irons in the fire so I am not certain moving on something that my gut tells me no is a good idea..
OOPS! I almost forgot.. All of my labs were normal. They did a passel of them. So....... I guess that means that I am just fat and lazy and need to exercise and join the hair club for "people"...
I have a third interview tomorrow with a company in St. Pete. They are a small, privately owned company which gives me the willys. This whole interview process I have gone through is almost a clone of a previous experience that did NOT turn out well. (Apparently I was too "big" company for them and they didn't care for anything I had to say). I have had IQ and personality tests, hours of interviews etc. I just don't know about such a small place. it has been an ordeal to say the least. I am going tomorrow to see if I still feel the same way before I make a decision. I have several more irons in the fire so I am not certain moving on something that my gut tells me no is a good idea..
OOPS! I almost forgot.. All of my labs were normal. They did a passel of them. So....... I guess that means that I am just fat and lazy and need to exercise and join the hair club for "people"...
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